2012

My Promice:

I will enjoy every moment I´m living- I´ll try to smile even more often and make my life worth living (it already is :) ) but I mean what I´ve told you before: The quality of live should be measured by the number of smiles on your face and moments that take your breath away. Every time I´m feeling blue I´ll try to find at least one thing that makes me happy or is just simply beautiful. It can be a barking cute dog, old granpa who is smiling, new and light green leaves or just a beautiful sunshine or a fresh blow of a wind.


What do I want from year 2012?
1. I want to experience ! New things, old things, familiar things, good things..... everything else but no bad ones. I just want different things in my life, to make it colourful, I don´t want everything to be just simple and white, I want to have many little prismas to make my life burst into all the colours of the rainbow. Every wavelength is warmly welcomed. It can be everything from snorkling to tandem benji jump, from painting on a canvase to running and from learning how to scateboard to tasting different flavours of ice cream.

2. I want to have as many smiles on my "life quality-counter" as possible. So 2012 just BRING THEM ON!

3. More luck in life. I want to accomplish the things I am reaching for, to get good grades from the university, to have less injuries, less disappointments, to have less pimples on my skin,... etc. Just name it.

4. I want to improve my self image. I want to be saticfyed with myself every single day. Life is just too short to hate yourself on some crazy days when alians attack your brains during the nightsleep and do something odd with them. Because of that you see yourself differently when looking on a mirror (when compared to those good days when alians have played poker all night long rather than messed up with you). It´s time to get rid of those bastards and feel good about youself every single day. You´ll just be able to do so many things you´ve never done just by doing it.

5. I want to help people and make them happy, fight against killing this planet, save species, open doors to old people, make surprices to my love ones. I always think what is the best way of doing everything- that's why I even buy my train tickets as e-tickets (it helps the nature) etc... :) I hope I´ll improve my Inner-Mother-Theresa this year.

picture from: weheartit; http://wordswithoutafraid.blogspot.com

Getting better with my new coelho

I had to wake up early to go to the hospital. I walked 2,5km with Minna and after that she continued the trip by running and I went inside to the hospital. I went to see the doctor and after that they took some blood to run some test. The woman who took it didn´t really knew what she was doing- she injected me like hundreds of times to both hands and now I´m having bandages around them. It hurt as hell and took 30 minutes for her to do the job- I was hungry and for the first time in my life I started feeling sick, my face was totally white and the only thing I could see was white. I had this cold sweat and really wanted to go home.. I had planned to go to the gym direct after visiting the hospital but I was not feeling like it... I had to walk 2,5km back home. On my way I went to the book store to buy this Coelho's book. I love his books and I hope this is going to be as good as previous ones I´ve red. I think I need some rest now...

I still have a lot to tell about my last week of 2011. and guys... Happy new year to you all! :)

This was our Bajram

So as you can see, Bajram is similar to Christmas at least in my country, we only celebrate it twice a year. One of them lasts three days and second four days. We have too much to eat, we exchange presents, decorate our home if we feel like doing it, visit our relatives and listen to music and party. So its kinda happy celebration with rakia and other "drinks of joy" :) You can see chocolate fudge fondants with raspberries and vanilla sauce, raspberry pie, halva, baklava's, fruits, deer meat, creamy potatoes, salads and filled paprikas. I love celebrating Bajram and I´ve got so many good memories of my childhood that are ralated to Bajram :) I´m just happy that we have it two times a year :)

Merry Christmas!

and then to weheartit:

This is all I want to wish you :) My family is not going to celebrate Christmas, but tomorrow we are going to do that with our cousins. It´s going to be about me, my sisters Elvira and Sabina and cousins Elma, Elvis and Elvisa. Today I´m going to watch plenty of movies, drink hot glögi (Skandinavian mulled wine), eat ginger breads and watch all those wonderful movies and Disney cartoons I want. :) You can see the third photo above, that´s how it looked like here when I woke up, there is so much snow now<3

Black holes

And again... I´m always dreaming about really odd things. I don´t know what kind of dreams people usually dream about, but mine... They consist of fairytales and Disney characters, danger, movie-scenes, random people, odd creatures, glittery trees, houses made of 10 other familiar homes to me (for excample every room can be from a different place in reality), I can split into two and speak to myself from both bodies, I can fly, dive without needing any oxygen, fight against bears or wolfs with my daggers that are always in my left boot or just fish and then notice that I have no shirt on and I keep getting really beautiful and colourful and glowing fish that talk to me and then I just pick them up and put in my bucket and take them to eat some ice cream with me or we can just take a cab to the moon and then talk about laws of physics together... Me and my fish. Yep I know.

This time my dream was just as random as always. I was in a random shopping center that looked like my previous University building at Jyväskylä. Then one of the popular bloggers came and asked me and my sisters and cousins to keep her company at this pretty odd bench...? I was located in the middle of this giant field and the grass was really tall. This bench had some kind of holes in it and this grass stack out of them. We all six sat on this little bench (how is that even possible with these butts we have?) and then those tassels of grass stack out from our crotches. We just held on to them with both hands like men usually do with their p's. Okay... it´s not over yet... We continued our journey to our old neighborhood from childhood and broke into our old home. New owners felt so sorry for us when we told them that we were homeless (yeah right- our plan worked!) that they gave us their balcony to live in (it was my favourite place in there). The landscapes I saw from there in that dream were something beyond the....everything. It was the mixture of everything; sea, mist, mountains, forests, glitter, rain, sun, rainbows, different colours, old castles, beach, islands....- and they all moved like if it was a track we watched. I wanted to take a picture of everything I saw but Elvira's camera worked like skates on the asphalt. Luckily I got this remote control to play and stop and to wind back everything by controlling the BLACK HOLE under the balcony!! It made the landscapes move and destroyed them like they usually do to the material that goes in them. Hell yea, what an imagination...

 

pictures weheartit

I think that I should try to find a dreamcatcher and let it do the magic. I do like all the weird things about my dreams but I could dream less about scary things. I guess that this old tradition of wise and old tribes could maybe help... or then just be a nice decoration on my wall... :D Maybe even some fairy dust could do the trick or then I just have to start opening these pandora boxes I get every evening I go to the bed and just keep guessing what´s about to happen this time... Exciting, scary and joyful thing to do.. :)