10.4

A early morning in no hurry, sun was shining in and I couldn't stay in bed after 9 am. Love feeling like this as soon as I wake up. 

My morning oats, sooo yammyy! To make them you need: Organic milk, a hint of salt, a hint of allspice (real name Pimenta dioica), 2 tea spoons of real cocoa powder (Fazer Cocoa Ögon, CocoVi etc...) and some organic honey! It's really good, and if you need more protein just add some protein powder in it OR smash boiled egg whites in it! ). 

Time to go to the Uni - we got our first real Lab notebooks for this course we are about to start next week. I would love to decorate it but it's against the policy... :( DAMN! I have decorating all notebooks, books, calendars...  

This girl decided to go to the grocery store to buy more food... Hmmph :D It was nice to carry them and I didn't even use plastic bags :) I never use them- real shopping bags are much better, cheaper, better looking and an ecologic option! :)
 Ps. I´m really excited about testing that FAST Creme Caramel Pudding... :) 

Reading Coelho's book while waiting for Anni to go to the gym together... :)

Recovery drink after our arm-back day... We had a pretty good workout together!  Now I have to go to the shower and then eat a last meal :)

A bed time :)

At one point I decided to order a potential dress for Sabina's prom on June and new training tights from NELLY.COM. I can't wait to get the package! I still don't know which shoes to wear with the dress... Or even which bra because I hate wearing the ones you just stick on you as much as I hate having only one real and long training pants, these are definitely needed big time. :D

A new hairc(a)t

My beautiful little sister Sabina, visit her blog by clicking her name :)!

Both shirts from H&M, the one that's on me is from GT. I just got to get them... my inner animal is happy when I wear them... :D

Such a beautiful day it is, don't you think? I was at the hairdresser (Mari) this morning at In-diko in Mikkeli. I decided to cut 5 cm's off and do the light layering all over my hair. It was time to rescue my hair and give it a needed kick for summer. It feels so much better now! After that we went to Rami with my mama, dad and Sabina. We were so hungry that we didn't even want to go shopping with them :D!

I decided to go running after we arrived home and that feeling... The sun, fresh air, the views and those Nikes... It felt like running on soft pillows or clouds. :) Our day didn't end there because we got this really absurd idea to make cupcakes out of cauliflower, peanut butter, coconut, banana, mango, dark cocoa powder, agave syrup, vanilla, baking powder, egg whites and protein powder... :D Sabina wasn't the biggest fan but to me they taste like heaven O.o! ...and I'm still eating them!

Today we decided to hit the gym together and it was really nice to be there with her! We were killing each others and those two hours passed really quickly by moaning and sweating. When I came back I ate 10 muffins and my protein smoothie... It was a good morning! I hope I can walk tomorrow... :)

PS. I can't stop listening to the Imagine Dragons and their songs... This is one of my favorites! :)

A Western Warchild

This tunnel is one that helped people in Sarajevo during the surroundings. It was the only way out and in to the city. It is a museum now called Tunel Spasa.

21 years back from now this little girl was 1 years old happy and playful child, who had no worries, had her own german shepherd puppy in the yard to lick her face and the best young and educated parents, uncles and aunts... She had her own house daddy had built for them . That country she was living in was warm and sunny. The life seemed perfect, her parents had big plans for their future and they were just started a new little happy family together - mama, daddy, little H and her puppy Lazo.

Then suddenly only the sun stayed but everything else was gone. No more Lazo - he got killed by serbian soldiers while trying to defend us, nor house she called her home. No more playtimes nor happy smiles on her face. Fear and hunger came, her four uncles and her land were gone. Dad wasn't there to keep her calm and say he'll defend her from all bad things. The concentration camp kept his own body and mind in hunger and torture. Mama had to leave her for a little time to her aunts- she got her first baby sister- a little and quiet war princess E. But no one could be happy for giving a life to a baby in the middle of a war zone, where you could see body parts on the streets and feel the fear. This little girl kept calling anyone she saw her daddy, even the bad guys and that killed her mama from inside. She had her own little stuffed bunny under her arm and she drew in her own little notebook while they had to live in the basement with many other families in fear of grenades and snipers. No one knew who could turn you in  for hope of saving their own lives.

Then one day a little miracle happened- she got a new chance to live in this cold, new and distant land, a chance that no one really wants to get because having that chance means letting go, getting killed, loosing your life, being in a hunger, loosing your nationality and family and living just to survive. The day when her daddy was released she couldn't recognize him anymore, she ran to her mom and her daddy burst into tears- his babygirl saw only a big beard, bones and clothes that were hanging down on that man who had the most sad face she had ever seen.

Luckily they all were survivors, ambitious and most importantly lucky- those things together gave them a chance to continue smiling and this little girl found a million reasons to be happy for and be proud of.  That same smile is still on my face and the days like this just remind me of the fact that yes my nation has seen it all, survived but they all can still smile and no one whines about the little things in life- those things are the ones we can joke about and life should be a happy journey for us all. And yes we all know that having a chance to life is a reason to smile every single day that's why I'm really good in it.

1. My grandma and grandma seven years after the war in front of their house 2. My house 3. Me (left) , my cousin Elma (right) and my mom at the refugee camp 4. My face on the Seura- magazine.

And this is a true story, it's my story.

Food mantra

I have been thinking about this maybe for a year now and now I have reached my decision! I have decided to start writing also in Finnish after my English section. Bosnian would be also a good choice but my posts would just be too long- I hope that you all can speak English and understand me! :) I can make an exception if the posts are short... :) and a exception if the posts are too long- this one will be only in English!

There is one thing that is really pushing me back with my style of eating. When I´m home I have all the things  I need for making healthy and delicious foods, I have all the ingredients to make my food variable enough each week and exciting at the same time. I´m the one who is in charge what's in my fridge and how I prepare  what ever I´m eating- I´m also the one who decides when to go grocery shopping and makes sure that I don´t run out with different and essential ingredients. When I go to my parents house or anywhere else I loose my grip - I just can't find anything I need, and if I do find at least few suitable things there's always something missing... and I hate that from the bottom of my heart. That's when I can't keep my eating rhythm and I totally loose my desire to cook and eat.

I think this is a powerful message to us all - you and I have to make sure that where ever we are we have the basic things there too, especially if the place is among those you want to be often at. That's why I´m challenging myself and you too to make sure that you are able to keep up with your style of living and that others appreciate you at least that much that they are willing to support you. For ex. me and my sisters are nagging constantly to out parents to make sure that there is always olive oil in the fridge, beef and chicken meat, veges and fruits, organic non- homogenized milk, oats, rye bread and eggs... I hate it when I leave my place and go to Mikkeli on Friday, open the fridge and see almost nothing- why? Because they have their own "days for grocery shopping" ! Don't be the person with strict patterns you can't be flexible with! If you notice that your patterns are not working any more- change them for your own best!

My guidelines?

- Buy the essential ingredients if you notice that the bottles, packages etc are almost empty! Don't wait for the morning you wan't to prepare a oatmeal for a breakfast and then notice that the package was already empty last week. That's self sabotage. 
- Make a food plan for at least three days to come and make sure that you have EVERYTHING you need for those three days. If you have no car/bike/bus then buy food for two days and make sure that you can carry them.
- Have ingredients like oats, eggs, protein powder, frozen rye bread, olive oil, frozen berries, frozen meat always at home - when you come back home from your trip you have something to eat!
- Make sure that you have healthy snacks and water available at home and always something in your bag if you are having a long day at work/school/train...
- If your parents don't do the job/you are visiting your beloved one, friends, cousins, grandma - buy some ingredients you can leave there too- if you have your own pack of oats waiting for you with your name on it  you can be sure that you will be able to continue your life journey there too.
- Make a list of supplements you need for the person who is in charge with shopping, the best solution would be to go there together. 

photos: weheartit

I'm trying to follow those guidelines too, I will make sure that I have my food there too because it really is a  big turn off to even think about travelling to Mikkeli if I already know that I could manage better in Kuopio. I really have to change that because I don't want to be the one who hates visiting someone because the things are much more difficult there. They should not be- it's our choice not to do anything to the things that are bothering us. I returned one of my school papers back just a moment ago from my Nutrition studies. I´m considering about going running tomorrow after I arrive to Mikkeli even though my legs are still sore from yesterday... + Guess what! I managed to get a job to Sabina and Yasemin, and it really made my day! I couldn't be any happier now! Yes a good power run would just suit me perfectly at the moment! Go and take your first steps outdoors early tomorrow and charge your day with some good energy from that power ball on the sky! :) 

This Summer...

♥I will work and get money for this summer and next autumn♥celebrate Sabina's graduation♥I will buy myself new glasses and sunglasses♥Vans shoes♥many new bikinis♥make up brushes♥cute little dresses♥cute tops ans shorts♥new Dr Denim jeans♥Nike FREE's and new colorful tops, workout underwear and pants for the gym♥new gym gloves and nutrition stuff from MASS, CoCoVi, Puhdistamo and iHerb♥

 ♥a trip to Nice to meet my friend Henna who's as an exchange student there for six months! Can't wait!♥I will go swimming♥make sure that I get a nice and a healthy tan♥go on a picnic for several times♥go running when the sun rises and sets down♥go rollerblading at midnight♥blow soap bubbles♥paint♥read many good books and write my Bachelor's thesis on the sunny balcony or yard♥see my friends and make sure that I can be with them as much as I want♥

 ♥eat great food and grill a lot♥love♥eat fresh berries♥go to at least one festival♥dip fresh strawberries to a raw chocolate♥sleep in a hammock♥play with little dogs♥watch baby ducks swimming in a group♥go and train as much as I can♥spend time with my lovely sisters♥dream big♥take part in a water balloon fight♥

 ♥sit on a terrace with my friends♥visit my friends at Helsinki as much as I can♥watch great movies♥buy myself a second trip for the winter... I really can't see the point in spending the whole year in here...♥one quick trip this summer- at least to Stockholm♥go to a summer cottage♥go fishing♥sleep in a tent♥hope that many spontaneous things make this summer good♥make sure that I don't get bored♥photograph a lot for this blog♥

 ♥meet those friends that I can't meet very often♥love the smell of the fresh cut grass♥read magazines at the beach and sip fresh squeezed smoothies♥make hearts with the sun lotion on my skin♥make sure that the life I´m living feels good- there's only short summer once a year- make it good one♥be fearless and do something like parachuting♥

 ♥be happy and smile♥play badminton and beach volley♥eat great ice cream on the roof picnic♥make sure that I have done the photos to the real photo paper♥sleep well and enjoy my long and peaceful breakfasts in an empty home♥listen to the birds and watch the annual fight between a squirrel and a magpie in front of my window♥smell fresh flowers♥ride a bike and feel the wind blowing through my hair♥

 ♥feel the heat under my feet♥enjoy the midnight sun♥celebrate the midsummer with my friends♥eat self made cheesecakes with berry toppings♥play the guitar♥sip hot chocolate drinks and lattes outdoors on those warm summer evenings♥let my inner child enjoy the life itself♥avoid arguing as much as I can♥climb up the tree and a hill♥

 ♥lie on the cooling grass♥get my motivation and strength for the autumn to come♥make sure that I accomplish the things I decide♥I won't be alone when I don't feel like it♥I hope I will have luck in lottery♥want to have colorful nails every day♥try to skate and not fall♥take care of my hair with argan oil♥

♥make sure that my skin is moisturized every day♥listen to the songs that make me dance♥start looking for the potential dance classes again♥feel free, be free♥enjoy seeing the blue and bright sky every morning♥try to see the beauty in waking up to the work every day and night♥wear red lips♥